being in the place where God wants you

Day 1
 To be willing
Nehemiah 11:2 " And the people blessed all those who willingly offered to live in Jerusalem,"

Kelly finishes day one with these  questions and observations. "Where is the Lord asking for your willingness. What changes are you afraid of and what do you fear giving up. We may not always like it. We may be weary or discouraged. But never underestimate the importance of simply being physically present in the place where God wants you.
Sometimes obedience simply means showing up"

I am back home after three weeks in New York. It was a wonderful and hard experience.

Yesterday at 2:20 A.M., I wrote how I felt on my cell phone and posted it and it went into cyber space somewhere.  So, I am going to try again  to tell how  I feel.

We were wonderfully blessed by the experience, but I was so ready to come and see the kids. Yet, I was torn about leaving Breezy Point when I saw so much need still  around me. That night,  we heard  there is a DR in Mississippi,  we signed  up and are ready to go if they need us.

Last night, we  had some of the kids and all of the grand kids over for supper.  We will have Drew and Megan over for breakfast  and plan  to see Alle today on her birthday.   My heart breaks because I will not be here for her birthday party on Saturday.

I feel like a girl with a split personally. Part of me is  a home body, perfectly content to stay home and kiss and hug the grands, feed the family, go to church and bible study and play tennis.  But the other part wants to go out into the world and travel and help others. Red cross has given us that opportunity to serve. This week, when we were walking on ice, loading forty pound boxes in the rain, one volunteered asked, "what would make a middle age person think that this is a good idea."  The answer has to be,  the people.

When we flew out yesterday, Mark said," look out the window, we may never see that sight again" and I agreed.  But today, after studying  Day two of our study of Nehemiah, well, you never know. Chapter 12 is  about the celebration of the building of the wall and the return of the people to their city.  Nehemiah started with inspection of the wall and went full circle to walking on and celebrating the restoration.  Maybe, just maybe, one day, we will be able to go back and see Breezy point restored to it's former glory...a community restored, by the grace of God. There is always hope.